suddenly, everything just burdened up and if only everything can just be neglected. that would be good but everything don't go the way we want it. I want to turn on my tear ducts but it seems nothing can flow out. I want to scream my lungs out but it seems that there's no voice.
Everything i wanted to do, i have no means, everything that i see,hear or know, i want to forget yet i have no means.

If crying can help, i want to. If laughing like mad, thinking everything's all right, i want to.
anything and everything that can get my mind off that particular stuff, i will even if it means keeping myself occupied 24/7, i'm willing.

Particularly, i told no one, no not even stone (sorry). i want to maintain a strong image infront of you. not that i want to neglect the fact that every single one have one of their pits time and it sucks. the fact is we are both trying very hard to maintain our strong image. yes, stone you know we are trying hard for our good friends and for one another. and also we both know we got many things deep down in our hearts where we did not tell one another. And also if i tell the other side, what i can get is solution after solutions which I BLOODY DON'T NEED IT.
It's tiring when you faced something and when you share, you only get back naggings after naggings or lectures that they make sure it will convict you out of your heart. What i need was someone like stone, to be there to listen to me, thank you stone. Seriously, being with stone and the rest like serene gives me no pressure. we don't have to be complicated and watch our sentences. Like the situation when people correct one another of their phrasing or whatever, i don't feel like talking much. have a taste of your own medicines. We need to check ourselves, are we too complicated? or are we making things too complicated.
If being with you all allows me to be complicated, i rather not be. it's tiring, since last year.

hmm just give me a break, really, a break..

Result slips were released today, position 11/40
class position 59/245
considering amaths was passed by a mark and english was failed.
the whole result wasn't that good after all.
but still there is sa and so on. we can still buck up.
hmm.


每个人必有我们自己的守护天使 .

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<3 ZOE. 8:26 PM